RAISING HELLIANS (PART 11)

I WISH TO THIS DAY I WOULDA MADE SOME BETTER CHOICES.THEN I DID THAT DAY.I WISH JEREMY DIDN'T BUST OUT ROCKS OUTTA HIS BACK PACK . I WISH MY FRIENDS WEREN'T INTO GETTING HIGH. BUT SHOULDA WOULDA COULDA. JEREMY RAILED OUT A COUPLE FATTYS FOR THE BOYS. I REALLY WASN'T DOWN FOR DOING LINES SO JEREMY POPPED A LITTLE ROCK INTO A PIECE OF TOILETTE PAPER AND HAD HE SWALLOW IT. I DID IT BECAUSE I JUST WANTED TO FIT IN AND NOT BE A PUSSY. LITTLE DID I KNOW OR UNDERSTAND AT TIME BUT I MADE A REALLY POOR CHOICE. AFTER GETTING HIGH I LEFT THE HOUSE IN MY OWN DIRECTION. I DIDN'T FEEL MUCH AT FIRST BUT AFTER WALKING FOR A BIT IT STARTED TO REALLY KICK IN.. WOW WHAT A FUCKING RUSH. I NEVER FELT BETTER IN MY WHOLE LIFE. I COULD DO ANYTHING . I WAS CONFIDENT COCKY AND EVEN MORE CREATIVE. I HEADED OVER TO MY GOOD FRIEND JESSICAS HOUSE. WHERE I PRECEDED TO TELL HER EXACTLY WHAT I WAS UP TO. SHE THOUGHT I WAS DUMB BUT I NOTICED SOME SPARKED INTEREST IN HER EYES WHEN WE WHERE DISCUSSING THE EFFECTS OF DOPE.
I DON'T REMEMBER MY SECOND TIME GETTING HIGH BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THE CRAVING I HAD FOR THE DRUG. NEVER DID I THINK ABOUT ANYTHING SO MUCH. ITS WHEN I DISCOVERED DRAWING ON CRANK. THAT WAS THE BEST RELEASE I EVER GOT FROM ANYTHING. I WAS KING SHIT AND ALL ON TOP OF MY GAME. I HAD THE COOLEST FRIENDS IN SCHOOL . I KNEW EVERY BODY AND I WAS WELL LIKED BY MOST OF MY PEERS. ONE DAY THAT TURNED COMPLETELY UPSIDE DOWN ... ONE DAY .